Hey just felt like sharing my little journey here since it's confusing for me and I think typing it will help me think.
I'm having really bad stomach fatigue and headaches... Now the weirder part is, I'm starting to notice mood changes.
Here's an example;
I have a female friend who friendzoned my "feelings" and every day I see her and some guy being all romantic
Now before, I'd feel upset, like actually feel it, I'd feel heavy, my chest got right, I'd kinda be "drooping" and is just feel "down"
But now, I literally feel nothing. Which sounds like a miracle, but it's really weird. I mean, I still think sadness, it's still in my head, but I just can't "feel" it anymore, it's a major disconnect.
So take that as a positive or negitive, I have no emotions now :/
I'm also noticing that I'm getting really hyper A LOT. Like, jump around and hug people hyper. It's really weird, I mean I'm not generally a quiet guy, but from what I'm noticing afterwards, I'm getting really worked up.
Today I actually recorded a Heroes and Villians cover where I was SCREAMING and just playing random stuff, it was actually a little scary to go back and listen to... (I salvaged it, coming soon
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On the up side, I was feeling very guilty about stuff and that's basically gone, which is a really great thing. My major concern now is that it's not even fully working yet, and it's basically either making me feel nothing or making me feel an extreme, like right now, typing this long thing, is more like my old depression and that's pretty weird since I don't feel anything anymore :/
Oh, and it's kinda midnight and I can't sleep
Well hey, hopefully this is at least an interesting read, I'm pretty good about noticing this kind of stuff, considering I was diagnosed with depression, anxiety and obsession