Recovery from grief is simply not linear, and events such as death anniversaries can't help but reopen memories and feelings that might otherwise seem to have been dealt with and resolved.
We can hope that everyone eventually understands this as they go through their version of the experience, and fortunately, it appears that many here have demonstrated the type of sympathy and understanding that should rightfully be directed to someone who is still in the "near throes" of grief and loss. Those type of complex emotions are what make it possible for us to overcome the animal side of our natures, and lead us toward the practice and appreciation of music, art and literature...which, after all, is the reason why we are all here--united (occasionally!!) in our love for the BBs music.
Thanks for such a wonderfully open and appreciative post. We'll try to live up to that praise--at least 10% of the time!!