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Smiley Smile Stuff / General On Topic Discussions / smiley smile to soothe a hurt brain
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on: September 02, 2009, 09:08:08 PM
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i've had a weird day
about nine hours ago i smoked but one bowl of marijuana and set out into the woods on a journey
in the valley of dirt i sat and meditated after some time three monsters appeared
a guy and his two sons on quads dirt and mud in the air, they got stuck in quicksand
at some point he drove up on to the hill where i sat and while i spoke to him i melted like butter internally
i've experienced typical ego-death on other drugs and ego-transcendence through meditation
yet this was more like an anxiety attack plus the melting of my psychological self
for quite some time i have been coming to realize that marijuana is spiritually deadly for me personally
today the realization came in full when i was shattered
nine hours later i feel as if i've been through a war
in an effort to find peace and to try and seduce back the inner lucidity that i began my day with sober
i searched for appropriate music
i hadn't listened to the beach boys in a while but i remembered what carl said about smiley smile
being used in some rehab clinic to help people chill after intense drug experiences
i have it on now - it is indeed very soothing for this purpose
because it's carefree in a childish way a temporary relief from crippling psychic demons
it's an isolated world of controlled cheerfulness
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